Hadley Rose: month five

(Okay, I am committed to these object numbers and had like 15 minutes to do this before Emmett woke up…So we are just calling this month a wrap and hoping that Christmas ornaments or pine cones or something work really well with a “6” next month! :-p)

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Hadley had a rocky fifth month, but I am pleased to say that at the end of it we are hitting a new groove. I mean, that is the story and life with a baby, right? Find one groove, then they change. Find the next groove and so on.

Either way, Jake and I smiled at each other tonight as we put both kids to bed around 7 and came downstairs to do our own thing and let the kiddos sleep.

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We had been rocking Hadley to sleep but it was becoming such an ordeal. Finally one afternoon at nap time I go so fed up with the bouncing, squatting, butt patting etc. (because she just would not fall asleep that day) that I just laid her down in her merlin sleep sack with a blanket over her head ( I watch her on the monitor…she is fine. I don’t need angry mom comments!) and left the room. And guess what? She fell asleep. Ever since then life has felt a lot more “freeing” shall we say.

This is not to say there haven’t been some tears and screams but overall it has been an excellent transition.

On another note, the puking has lessened exponentially as well!! I can’t tell you how happy I am to say that. We don’t go through five outfits a day anymore. Just three 😉

Hadley adores Emmett. If anyone can calm her down (other than the boob), it is Emmett. Her eyes are glued to him and she loves to watch him and any interaction he gives her.

What else to say? I feel like before I post these I think of tons of things and then can’t think of them! What do you want to know?

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Some Hadley Stats

weight: 12 lbs 8 oz as of last month. I have not weighed her in 4 weeks though.

height: *to be added* I seriously don’t ever remember this!

diapers: size 2

clothing: She is in a mix of 0-3 and 3-6. This is still true….*sigh*

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What Hadley is up to:

-starting to be able to sit. Like, she can’t really sit by herself but I can tell it is coming soon.

-shrieks. Is this a total girl thing that I missed out on for the last 2 years? Cuz I am actually OK without it….she is LOUD!

-rolled over. She can be found on her side often stuck halfway between roll though.

-smiling and laughing . Gosh, this girl loves laughing and smiling. She is ELF.

-self entertainer. This is not true ALL the time but some mornings I just set her under her gym and she just hangs out for a long time.

-We successfully unswaddled her. She sleeps in the merlin sleep sack now.

Hadley Photo Dump:

 

xo, bethany rose

What’s on my Baby’s Feet | Potato Feet

My sweet little girl has teeny, tiny feet.

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So tiny that even with the blessing of all the clothes from friends and family, she still didn’t even fit into the shoes gifted us! The weather outside was getting oh so much colder (someone please tell me why summer has to end in Pennsylvania?!) and I knew I needed to find some warm, comfy shoes. Because, let’s face it, socks just do not stay on babies’ feet!

Well, I find a lot scrolling Instagram and someone had posted these adorable shoes on their little one. Naturally, being in the shoe dilemma I was in, I clicked and it brought me to Potato Feet.

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I was instantly hooked. Not only did they have a bunch of different styles and colors of shoes, but they had warm, snug, tiny shoes that looked perfect for Hadley.

The irony about this company though is that the owner created it because her son had bigger feet before he was ready to walk and she needed something soft and comfortable that did not have a rubber sole just yet!

(So honestly, if you’re hunting around for shoes for big OR small feet, this is your place.)

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We got the Dusk Booties because I was looking for a color that was neutral and could go with pretty much any outfit (however, I was totally eyeing  the Minted Lace ones because they’re so pretty!). The booties are such a good style for smaller babies because they are soft like slippers and completely comfortable for the baby.

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Also, bonus, I am not saying any shoe is “fool proof” in the falling off department, but these are pretty darn close. They fit well around her ankles with a stretchy elastic band on the top of her foot making them super easy to pull on, but then snug enough to keep on as well!

These shoes are a total winner in my book and I am so happy to have stumbled across them! Be sure to check them out and use code WELCOME to get 15% off your first order!

xo, bethany rose

Postpartum Hair Loss

Ok, I just need to be real with you all for a second.

I think my baby is the cutest thing since April the Giraffe had her baby. She (sometimes) smells like roses and sunshine and when she is sleeping it is the most peaceful thing ever. I love when my son holds her and looks at me with his humongous, all-cheeks, proud smile.

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What I don’t love are the things that happen to me postpartum. Everyone knows those first few weeks after having a baby include bleeding, ouchies, a stomach that no amount of pizza can fix and you may as well start dragging around a water fountain if you plan to nurse.

But when all of that is said and done and you think life is on the uphill…your hair starts falling out.

Say whaaat?!

Those prenatals that gave you those glorious locks just aren’t doing the tricks anymore. Instead your estrogen level drops taking a ton of hair along with it. When I had Emmett this happened and I took some biotin and eventually my hair was back to normal. This time though it feels like it is rougher. The amount of hair that I can lose is intense. 

I became slightly desperate to help my hair and put to rest the balding spots (they were for real happening). I wanted to do this naturally for my hair and not harm it in any way. In my ‘quest for knowledge (and to defeat this dragon of a problem)’ I came across three resources that I wanted to share.

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1.Biotin. I mentioned earlier that I started taking this after giving birth to Emmett. I decided to do so again because I think it may have helped the hair loss stop a little sooner. If you decide to take Biotin, know that it is measured in micrograms. You can take a tablet anywhere from around 30 mcg to 10,000 (not sure if it goes higher). If you do a quick google search you will hear different arguments for how much should be taken while breastfeeding.

2. Collagen Peptides. If you follow me on instagram you may have seen my post earlier this week about Vital Proteins. Collagen is an extremely beneficial and natural protein. It helps strengthen hair, nails, bones and even helps your skin. You can read all the science and awesomeness of it here. As for me, I’ve been taking this in my smoothies and apple cider 1 or 2 times a day.

3. Essential Oil Spray. I wish I could give the person who came up with this credit, but I ran across it on instagram I think! Anyways, I took a tiny spray bottle, filled it with water and added 10 drops of the following: lavender, rosemary and cedarwood. I will say that some websites say don’t let lavender near your babies. I feel comfortable using this spray though because I literally spray maybe 3 squirts in the morning and at night directly to my scalp. It is do diluted that, for me personally, I am not concerned.

Ok, so you obviously want to know if this all worked, right? Well, it did. it did not all work immediately. It took a little bit of time. But in a couple of weeks my balding spots were already starting to fill in and this week less hair was falling out of my head in the shower!

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Which of the 3 worked best? Well, I am not sure. I used all 3 simultaneously because I was a bit desperate.

Did enough time pass that your hair just stopped falling out on its own? Possibly. But I know I had nothing to lose taking these three things. If anything, the collagen and biotin are making my nails strong and my skin smoother (less breakouts, people!!!). And the essential oil spray is making my hair smell lovely.

xo, bethany rose

An essay at Mother.ly

Before Hadley was born I wrote an essay about the end of pregnancy. I submitted it online and then kind of forgot about it to be honest. Well a couple weeks ago I got a message that  Mother.ly had accepted it and decided to publish it. I was so excited!!!

Then this week I got notice that it had officially gone live on their site. I wanted to share it with y’all. Thank you for reading here and I hope you enjoy it there.

“It will only be so much longer that my son runs over to me to kiss and hug my belly, unknowingly kissing and hugging his little sibling from the outside world….People will stop genuinely asking how I am feeling….Seats will not be miraculously opened anymore for the woman with a huge belly…It will not be forever that my husband whispers his love to an unseen child, telling them about the world they will soon enter.”

Read the full essay here, “There’s no way to speed up this pregnancy, so perhaps I should slow down.

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xo, bethany rose

Hadley Rose: month four

Hadley, Hadley, Hadley! You keep us on our toes and we love you for it.

 

I am writing this as though the last couple days (since Hadley officially turned 4 months) have not happened (because they have thrown us for a loop….waking up every two hours at the beginning of the week to sleeping last night TEN/ELEVEN hours).

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Month four has been the month where I finally feel like we are starting to get into a routine. Hadley naps more consistently lending itself to me having more 1 on 1 time with Emmett and having more time to clean and work from my computer.

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Hadley LOVES talking, laughing, looking at you and being held. A little extrovert!? She can also be a little holy terror when she is tired and you are not helping her fall asleep. For this girl to sleep, she basically just wants a blanket over her face. She will fall asleep in your arms, the swing or a bassinet/crib as long as a little lovey is covering her face. She still fights sleep at times though. She is  also still being swaddled or in the Merlin Sleep suit. Any tips on getting a baby who LOVES to be swaddled transitioned out of that? She still has not rolled over (though I find her on her side, so I know it is bound to happen soon).

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Some Hadley Stats

weight: 12 lbs 4 oz according to our home scale (her 4 months check up isn’t for another week)

height: *to be added*

diapers: size 2

clothing: She is in a mix of 0-3 and 3-6. She is seriously our little peanut after Emmett!

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What Hadley is up to:

-found her feet It is so cute to see her pull them up and play with them.

-more alert Every month she becomes more alert and people are constantly commenting on it.

-talking,talking,talking! I literally just copied and pasted this from last month because she is just noisy! 😀

-smiling and laughing Again, same as last month. Her laugh though is getting deeper and more of a belly laugh. It is so freakin’ adorable!

-wants attention Still copying and pasting here. She can be crying and then you look at her and she stops. Literally, she just wants you looking at her or to be held. This is not to say she doesn’t self entertain as well.

-loves her play gym. It’s so cute: the second you put her under there either her legs start going because she is so excited to be under it or she starts crying because she knows you are leaving her!

-sleeping 9 hour stretches This is about the same.

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Hadley Photo dump:

 

xo, bethany rose

Hadley Rose: month three

Second children definitely get the short end of the social media platform at times! Hadley turned 3 months on the 16th…10 days ago!

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I’ve decided she is an easy baby if you know her. If you don’t, she can be challenging. She has certain things she “needs” to sleep and if she is tired and can’t fall asleep, you have one unhappy + mad baby sometimes! Other times she falls asleep right away…you just never know what it’ll be! I feel like I need to write a tiny book on “Knowing Hadley” for anyone who watches her.

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We are out of the “witching hour” *phew* and it has been easier to get her down at night. She is sleeping AMAZINGLY. Two nights ago she ate at 7, went to bed at 8, got the pacifier reinserted a couple times during the night, but did not eat again util 7 the following morning!!!  Last night she went down around 7:30 and woke at 5 to eat. I can’t remember if  I had to wake up to give her the pacifier before that. We have continued an “eat,wake,sleep” routine. We did this with Emmett too and it has helped tremendously with sleep!!!

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Some Hadley Stats

weight: No clue.

height: Probably similar to last month. I don’t check these things unless we have an appointment! >.<

diapers: size 1, but after this pack I plan to transfer to 2’s

clothing: We are still using our 0-3 outfits for the most part, but I think we will be in 3-6 fairly soon.

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What Hadley is up to

-talking,talking,talking!

-smiling and laughing

-wants attention 

-does not care who it holding her until it is time to sleep

-sleeping 9 hour stretches

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Hadley Photo Dump

xo, bethany rose

P.S. Taking these photos is not always a walk in the park with Emmett around–haha– but there are some other fun shots then too and Jake always helps!

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My [raw] Motherhood Essays #1

I sit here with an iced coffee–coconut, my favorite–and a chocolate chip cookie baked last night. Both of my children are napping and the air outside has autumn swirling around inside of it. The house is mostly spotless and there are only two piles of laundry to fold today instead of three. But the truth is, my afternoons are not always like this. Yesterday was not like this.

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Yesterday my daughter screamed more in her life than she ever has before. She screamed to the point where I needed to lay her down, walk out of the room and just breathe. I needed to go upstairs and hold my son who snuggled into me and pray that my husband returned from work sooner and not later.

I know this is okay. The midwife told me weeks ago when she was born, “It is okay if the baby cries and you just need a breather. Leave her in a safe spot and go take a couple minutes for yourself.” I know that if she told me that, she must tell all moms that. If she is telling other moms this, it must happen to other moms. I must not be alone. I must not be the only mom who has moments that need a reset button and needs to be alone. To breathe. To sit. To scroll instagram and know that the other moms on there have moments too.

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“Your instagram is perfect,” commented a girl to me once. “You have such beautiful pictures.” And perhaps my pictures are pretty. But perhaps it is because I love photography. I love capturing the happy moments that happen in my little family. Don’t most of us? It’s not to make a front that my family only has perfect, smiling moments. My photos are an art in the way my words are. I think they both share different sides of my story.

So here are the words that belong in between the pictures.

My  daughter went in and out of screaming. By the time my husband came home (later than normal) he took the baby without asking and I made dinner (which was served later than normal). He then shoo’d me out of the house to my spinning class where I took those 45 minutes to breathe (and work out harder than normal). I think you get the picture.

Today is better. My daughter must have worked out that gas and decided that she actually did need to nap today. She smiled at me tremendously as well and I returned the favor.  Today I started my morning reading my Bible and asking God for patience. He answered abundantly.

I think it’s in these moments that the learning and persevering occur. It’s up to us if we allow these moments to make us feel like failures or instead turn those feelings over to God and ask him to use these moments to shape us into the mothers we strive to be; the mothers He has called us to be.

xo, bethany rose